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Friday, December 24, 2010

don't take it seriously

Err, okay. I changed my relationship status from "in a relationship" to "engaged" with whoever my guys is. My Tita would always react on my relationship status. I dunno how she could actually think that I'm really engaged? Please, please, please... I dunno what to think about her. But as of now, I think this will serve as something to annoy her. I hope she'll get open-minded when it comes to this stuff.

*And does she really think that my guy is not good enough for me?*

Saturday, July 10, 2010


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Papa Al,

I miss you soooooooooo much!!! T____T I want to hug you again, laugh with you, tease you, play chess and cards with you especially when I'm sick and you purposely lose the game to make me win, have a downtown trip especially in China town, go to beach and have dinner with the rest of the family, and do all the things we used to do before, i wanna do them again with you. I'm not expecting that to happen in reality, but at least in my dream.

I hope you miss us, too. I know that Papa God is not making you sad in His paradise. I hope to see you at the right time. I love you so much Pa! I miss you :(



Yours,

Daddy's Little Angel

Sunday, July 4, 2010

really?

accusing somebody is bad. really bad. especially when it's only your instinct who tells you who did it. what the fuck happened to old geezers like you to accuse your son stealing a gold ring from you? we don't have any proof that he really did it. we know he's broke but that doesn't mean he can steal anything from you. are you desperate because you can't think of anyone who you can possibly do it? how the fuck would he do it? just because he came close to the shelf where you suppose to put your golden fucking ring, it doesn't mean he stole it. and you really mean STEALING. and now confronting him is something i think is worse. it doesn't really make sense. what if you found your fucking ring somewhere? what would you do? it would be a slap on your face for accusing somebody who did not really do it.you have no idea how one feels being accused for something he did not do.

Friday, July 2, 2010

daily letter (day 4)


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Oliver,

You have grown up now. Grown up, I mean you're taller than me. I know we 're not close as siblings, but I promised myself that once I have a stable job, I'll help you with your studies. Please stay close with Mama and please don't give her a hard time because she already does with me. I may not be the best Ate you have, but I'll try my best to give you what you need in the future. Please don't hesitate to be close to me. I know sometimes you become annoying in text but I'm not being mean to you, am I not? Anyway, you are the only brother I have. Please do good in school. Keep away from bad influences and make your mama proud. :)

Dear cousins,

We may not be related by blood, but you know for sure that you are more than a real brother/sister to me. Thank you for keeping my secret about me having boyfriends since high school. Thank you for helping me figure out what needs to be figured out. Thank you for your patience though I have been the most annoying Ate you have. Thank you for your understanding when I'm not in my common senses. Thank you for appreciating the food I cook. And thank you for making me part of your life. I hope this will not end even though I'll get married. I love the laughters on random times and for your silence when I whine about heart breaks. You really know what I need. Let's support each other even when our hair turns to gray...


xoxo,

Ate Angel

Thursday, July 1, 2010

daily letter (day 3)



Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

i wasn't able to write the 3rd day letter yesterday because i was out-of-town and i'm lamenting on the fact that my beau will be going home to their province today so i decided to write it now. So here it goes

Dear  Biological Parents,

I love you, because if it wasn't for your mistake, I wouldn't be here! And I love my life now.

To my Dad who left us for almost 22 years now (yes, almost 22 years because he left my mom while she's carrying me in her tummy. Or is it the other way around, I don't know), I've always, ALWAYS, wanted to see you in person. I want to see your face if we have something in common. I wanted to hug you. I wanted to ask you many questions. I wanted to know you. I wanted to experience how a Dad like your age makes their daughter happy. 
And to my Mom who worked her ass off just to send money for me. Even though you have another family and considered my to be part of it, thank you. Although, there are times that I've been pressuring you for some financial matters, I know you're trying your best to give me what you can. I can feel that there are times that you get tired of how I've been telling you to do this and that. I know that doesn't much of a good daughter, right. But mother dear, don't worry. I've been doing everything I could for you to call me I'm your daughter. And I'm trying not to waste your efforts that you have been worked on. I love you.

Dear Foster Parents,

I lived my life for 21 years minus one week with you. You have seen me grown. You taught me good things from bad. I know I have not been the perfect daughter you thought I would, but you see, I've done good even though it's not good enough. I'm sorry for being so stubborn and not following all what you want me to do. I just want to be happy as what you wanted me to be. I understand all your nagging. It were all for my benefit. All I need is your understanding and support for all the things I do and about to do. Utang ko sa inyo ang buhay ko. You gave me almost everything I need. The things that aren't things like love, care, and safety. Things that are things are bonuses. I love you more than life.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

thrilled!

 
it's from here

My Ninang sent me a mail via facebook.com. I was thrilled when I read that she and her husband bought a surprise graduation gift for me. I am ÜBER excited to know what it is. And now that the graduation date is drawing nearer {April 16, 2010, that is}, I already have my drive to finish all the requirements needed to graduate. Who doesn't? Good luck to me.... Good luck to all to-be-graduates of 2010! ♥

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Christmas Eve wishlist!

Merry Christmas to all! This day seem so cold... Not much preparation, gift wrappings and food. To make me feel better, I made my wishlist hoping that Santa would this :)

1. I want my special someone to spend his Christmas with me or with his family. Either way won't make his Christmas cold. I bet he wanted someone to celebrate this season.

2. Turn back time. I want to go back to the time I haven't thought of formatting that camera. Maybe, just maybe, i could've made something more rightful than stupidly press the center button.

3. More food for noche buena. My lola gave P500 to my tita and thought of having KFC bucket meal. I think it's practical and the food is good enough since there are less people in this house. But I was thinking of leche flan and Red Ribbon cakes and vanilla or strawberry ice cream! yum :p

4. Lots of call and text load. I wanna ring up those dear people and greet them MERRY CHRISTMAS one by one.

5. Midnight walk with Cawi. I want to walk with him along the street since there's no fireworks and hopefully less accidents.

6. I want my own digital camera. Yeah, I'm craving to have one. Heard of lookbook.nu? I want to have an account there... *sighs* And i want this one...dual lcd digicam


7. A very good and disciplined diet. I WANNA BE SLENDER!!!!

8. I want a laptop... because... just because :)

9. I want an iPhone. It is portable.

10.DVD marathon. I want a portable DVD player where I can watch movies anytime i want.. Who wants to agree with me?

11. A complete family. I want everybody here this Christmas... Wishing I knew who's my daddy, ya'll! hehe!

12. World peace. Seriously, guys, we need this. Who doesn't? Unless if you're a greedy, war-freak sadomasochist.

13. No more famine. We don't wanna die starving.

14. A clean and Green Earth. We wanna live in this little sphere in the universe a little longer, so don't waste time wasting your garbage, a**holes!

So MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS!!! HAVE A SAFE AND PEACEFUL CELEBRATION! ♥

Thursday, December 10, 2009

i was thinking of glow in the dark lollipop

this day until saturday, the school holds a christmas bazaar in the gym. we were wandering around the stalls. then i came to a stall where a lady sells a glow-in-the-dark lolli... i've been looking for it since i came across a group of friends savoring the candy-in-a-glowing-stick in their tongue. so it's like i disregarded the price and bought two. i gave one to cawi and saved the other one to Enzo, my nephew. we became friends since i have food... haha!!


enzo enjoying the pop... fascinated with the light!


enzo: ate, enuf!



*sorry for the bad quality of the photos. it was taken with a webcam... i dunno what the bloody hell it happened but it's just blurry...

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

remembering ALBERTO

the scene is still clear. every beep of the monitor made got me feeling more nervous. however, that was a year ago; that was few minutes before PAPA AL slept for eternity.

we were in the midst of novena when i stared at his photo. i can't help but to reminisce those days when he's here annoying us, watching tv with us, sharing trivias about wars, classic icons, and everything he knows under the sun. i missed it. i missed him. *sniff*

*sobbing* he was definitely the best dad i could ever have. not a drop of blood runs through our veins but his thoughtfulness, and unconditional love hovers me. he disregarded the reality of my identity. in my thought, he wanted to wipe my tears; but he can't.

i wish he knew how much i loved him despite of all the pain in head, the shortcomings and disappointments i gave him. he still wants what are the best for me. until now, i can feel that through mama adet.

i love them both and mama adet is the one who reminds me of him.

Alberto A. Soriano
November 15, 1936- March 24, 2008

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