And it's not a secret anymore.
Sometimes I really wish I am insane right now. I particularly needed the disorder of an anorexic.
Yes, friends... I wanna be anorexic.
And I want it to happen right now.
photo from here
I've been worrying on how I am gaining weight every day. I'm planning on a diet but it doesn't work cuz my lola cooks so good it's hard for me to resist to want more. When in school, I can't maintain the diet because I think I'm too stressed out to eat less. I've been wondering why some people who gobble large piles of food than mine still remain their figure? I know it's because how fast their metabolisms work, but why not mine? Why can't my metabolism work as normal as theirs?
I envy those girls who can wear any dress and fits them just right. My friends/classmates where sort of chubby but their boobs looks larger than their tummies which gave them a slender look.
During lunchtime just this afternoon, I was thinking to hate the food so as not to eat it. But it's a sin to hate food. So I ate it instead *silly me*.
SO here's the plan:
a. Be anorexic and go for the desired waistline and weight.
b. After reaching the goal, go eat lots of fruits for maintenance. and oh, don't forget the veggies. *yech*
Another option: slimming capsules. and enroll myself to aerobics class. *pricey*
