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Showing posts with label thought. Show all posts

Monday, April 11, 2011

I AM MOVING...

Well, not really...

I have another blog in wordpress.
i hope you can still add this to your blog roll...

here's the link:

see you there! :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

don't take it seriously

Err, okay. I changed my relationship status from "in a relationship" to "engaged" with whoever my guys is. My Tita would always react on my relationship status. I dunno how she could actually think that I'm really engaged? Please, please, please... I dunno what to think about her. But as of now, I think this will serve as something to annoy her. I hope she'll get open-minded when it comes to this stuff.

*And does she really think that my guy is not good enough for me?*

Saturday, July 10, 2010


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Papa Al,

I miss you soooooooooo much!!! T____T I want to hug you again, laugh with you, tease you, play chess and cards with you especially when I'm sick and you purposely lose the game to make me win, have a downtown trip especially in China town, go to beach and have dinner with the rest of the family, and do all the things we used to do before, i wanna do them again with you. I'm not expecting that to happen in reality, but at least in my dream.

I hope you miss us, too. I know that Papa God is not making you sad in His paradise. I hope to see you at the right time. I love you so much Pa! I miss you :(



Yours,

Daddy's Little Angel

Thursday, July 8, 2010

daily letter (day 9)


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

There are lots of people I wanna meet. But to become realistic, I will write a letter to 2 or so people I wanna see alive before I die.

Dear long lost Daddy,

You know why I wanna meet you right?

Dear Trissey,

You don't know me, but I love your fashion sense and I've been following your blogs (here and here). I also like your tandem. You look good together and I hope you're nice when I see you. I just want to have a picture or two with you.

Dear Cawi's crush,

You are incomparable. And I guess he is right that you are waaay too much for him. I don't know why. I admit I become jealous every time he mentions your name and how he expresses sweet sighs in front of me. I know you're cool and hopefully kind enough to disregard my rude remarks. Anyhoo, I still wanna meet you and become good friends. But having you as a friend might be bad idea so i think we're better off this way-- anonymous to each other. I follow your blog and makes me like you more. 


See you around,

angel :)

Sunday, July 4, 2010

really?

accusing somebody is bad. really bad. especially when it's only your instinct who tells you who did it. what the fuck happened to old geezers like you to accuse your son stealing a gold ring from you? we don't have any proof that he really did it. we know he's broke but that doesn't mean he can steal anything from you. are you desperate because you can't think of anyone who you can possibly do it? how the fuck would he do it? just because he came close to the shelf where you suppose to put your golden fucking ring, it doesn't mean he stole it. and you really mean STEALING. and now confronting him is something i think is worse. it doesn't really make sense. what if you found your fucking ring somewhere? what would you do? it would be a slap on your face for accusing somebody who did not really do it.you have no idea how one feels being accused for something he did not do.

daily letter (day 6)


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear stranger,

How is life going? I hope it isn't that cruel than I imagined. I hope it will be good to you somehow. Have you  eaten yet? Did you sleep well last night? It was pretty cold today because of the rain. I hope you got a shelter. By the way, how's your family? I hope they're fine. I hope thinking about you, too, as much as you're thinking about them. Have you taken your shower? I know this is silly but seriously, some people don't take a bath especially when it's cold in the morning. By the way, we haven't met. And I don't know who you are. I hope I can ask the same questions when I get to know you.


nice writing a letter to you,

angel in disguise :D

Friday, July 2, 2010

daily letter (day 4)


Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Oliver,

You have grown up now. Grown up, I mean you're taller than me. I know we 're not close as siblings, but I promised myself that once I have a stable job, I'll help you with your studies. Please stay close with Mama and please don't give her a hard time because she already does with me. I may not be the best Ate you have, but I'll try my best to give you what you need in the future. Please don't hesitate to be close to me. I know sometimes you become annoying in text but I'm not being mean to you, am I not? Anyway, you are the only brother I have. Please do good in school. Keep away from bad influences and make your mama proud. :)

Dear cousins,

We may not be related by blood, but you know for sure that you are more than a real brother/sister to me. Thank you for keeping my secret about me having boyfriends since high school. Thank you for helping me figure out what needs to be figured out. Thank you for your patience though I have been the most annoying Ate you have. Thank you for your understanding when I'm not in my common senses. Thank you for appreciating the food I cook. And thank you for making me part of your life. I hope this will not end even though I'll get married. I love the laughters on random times and for your silence when I whine about heart breaks. You really know what I need. Let's support each other even when our hair turns to gray...


xoxo,

Ate Angel

Thursday, July 1, 2010

daily letter (day 3)



Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

i wasn't able to write the 3rd day letter yesterday because i was out-of-town and i'm lamenting on the fact that my beau will be going home to their province today so i decided to write it now. So here it goes

Dear  Biological Parents,

I love you, because if it wasn't for your mistake, I wouldn't be here! And I love my life now.

To my Dad who left us for almost 22 years now (yes, almost 22 years because he left my mom while she's carrying me in her tummy. Or is it the other way around, I don't know), I've always, ALWAYS, wanted to see you in person. I want to see your face if we have something in common. I wanted to hug you. I wanted to ask you many questions. I wanted to know you. I wanted to experience how a Dad like your age makes their daughter happy. 
And to my Mom who worked her ass off just to send money for me. Even though you have another family and considered my to be part of it, thank you. Although, there are times that I've been pressuring you for some financial matters, I know you're trying your best to give me what you can. I can feel that there are times that you get tired of how I've been telling you to do this and that. I know that doesn't much of a good daughter, right. But mother dear, don't worry. I've been doing everything I could for you to call me I'm your daughter. And I'm trying not to waste your efforts that you have been worked on. I love you.

Dear Foster Parents,

I lived my life for 21 years minus one week with you. You have seen me grown. You taught me good things from bad. I know I have not been the perfect daughter you thought I would, but you see, I've done good even though it's not good enough. I'm sorry for being so stubborn and not following all what you want me to do. I just want to be happy as what you wanted me to be. I understand all your nagging. It were all for my benefit. All I need is your understanding and support for all the things I do and about to do. Utang ko sa inyo ang buhay ko. You gave me almost everything I need. The things that aren't things like love, care, and safety. Things that are things are bonuses. I love you more than life.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

daily letter (day 2)

Dear Crush,

You don't have any idea how much you crushed my heart. I can't even name you. But you're kinda annoying. I can't even blame you cuz you have no effin' idea that I have a crush on you. But every time you pass by, especially when I'm with my beau, I feel like I've been pushed away. My beau keeps on teasing me saying, "Mine, anjan crush mo, o." And I'm just like, ">___<". I wish that you don't exist or we haven't met. But I know we can't help seeing each other because we were classmates once and became close friends for a while. But that was before. And right now, I'm happy seeing you with your dyed hair and flawless skin. Now, my boo and I thought you're a gay. That's cool. But still, admiring you isn't that bad, right? I just hate the way my boo teases me every time you're in our sight. I'm sorry for the blame.Don't worry, you'd still be the friend who makes other girls jealous of me. HAHA!

stay cool,

Doby

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

daily letter (day 1)

I found this list on a blog I've been following. I found it something worth blogging. That means, I'll be blogging for 30 days straight (I hope). oh for blogging's sake, i'll do this... 




Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

So today is my Day One.

Dear Best friend,

Right now, I can't think of any person who I can call best friend. But I remember two or three persons I used to have as my best friend. 


To my ex-bff, Eumir. We've been through rough times before and we never got to be more than friends when I was so into you. I know this is rubbish. But I know you pretend not to care about my feelings and continued being friends with me after a year of silent war with my gang. I loved you before, and I will still continue to love you as a friend. Right now, I can't imagine myself that I use to fall in love with my best friend. I'm happy now, and I'm happy that you're happy, too. I hope I can still tell you my secrets and keep it.


To my ex-bff turned ex-bf, Godwin. It was a mistake knowing you. But I didn't regret it. Despite of your asshole-ness, I fell for your charisma. And your cheating heart never changes till now. I used to hate you when you made me cry to sleep for nine months. But don't worry. I'm over you... SO OVER YOU. And you still made me laugh when you added me in your FaceBook and discussed how we could have mend our relationship before. Oh, STFU! Get on with your current cockroach girlfriend.


To my boyfriend, Cawi. We didn't have any friendship before we get into a relationship. But now, we've been through our ups and downs. We made our relationship stronger with the help of our mistakes, realizing how we can make it right. I shared you almost all of the rantings I can say. You're there to make me feel loved, feel safe, and feel free from grudges. There may be times that we have silly arguments and some serious problems.  But we make sure that everything will be okay after that. You may not be the best among my friends, but you are the one I could tell my true self comfortably. I LOVE YOU for that.


XOXO,
                                                                                                                                       
Doby 

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