kinsay DEFENSIVE?!

"watch your mouth, honey. you don't know what you mean..."

what is so defensive about admitting my own fault because im being irresponsible. when i'm telling the truth, is it defensive? i thought being defensive is like " devoted to resisting or preventing aggression or attack"(http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/defensive). i just thought recently, do you even know what defensive means? perhaps, NO!

i am defenseless. i am honest enough not to become so "defensive". and who are you to say that to me when you are the one who's being so defensive.

scene 1: at the locker...

you: "na unsa diay ka, dob?" (with your sarcastic, as-if-you're-concerned voice)
me: (in a very low, almost quiet, whispered voice) nabilin nako akong cap and mask :c
you: (in an uber loud voice that echoed almost throughout the OR) AI! NABILIN DIAY IMONG CAP AND MASK?! (still having that sarcastic voice)
me: unsa man ka?! mao nang dili k ganahan sa imo kay di li ka mapagkatiwalaan!
you: "aw!" (again, in a loud pitched tone) "nabilin jud diay imong cap and mask?"
me: bwisit ka man. nigara pud ka! ingnag ayawg saba, kusgon pod ang tingog. ever, dili jud tika mapagkatiwalaan samot na sa mga secrets! (walk out!)

scene 2: students' lounge...

you: unsaon man na nimo? naa bya si Ma'am A. basi masakpan ka. (sarcasm noted)
me: (with my disposable cap and mask) sige lang, naingnan na man pud nako si Sir A. kabalo na siya. gihatagan na gani ko niya ani [pointing to my cap].
you: unya kung si Ma'am A. ang makakita sa imo?
me: sige lang. hulaton ko lang na masakpan ko niya.
you: (with that pleading tone) sige lang, masakpan lang japon ka (and your face is uber evil!)
me: (with dignified voice ^^) bahala nag masakpan ko ni Mam, basta siya ang nakakita sa ako. kesa naman nang masakpan ko kay tungod sa mga estudyanteng sigeg tabi, skandalosa.
you: NGANONG DEFENSIVE MAN KAAYO KA?!
me: (controlling my temper with what she just said) i'm not being defensive. honest lang ko. dili defensive ang tawag ana. (while walking out) ...basa-basa pud ug dictionary ui!

sharing these with my friends, they are just laughing. they never expected that she could utter such word not even knowing what it means or why she's saying it.

we used to be in the same group but there's no spirit within it. it's so lame that your groupmate would plead "masakpan lang japon ka!" i don't know if i deserve to be in this group or she should be exiting this kind of manner and make me feel like i'm [art of the group. nagsalig siguro siya na kagrupo sila dati sa akong mga kagrupo karon, she would act superior like she's the boss. that's a BIG NO-NO to me. she can talk and yell if she wants to, but i would never allow her to say such things to me when she's describing herself.

honey, you're soooo boorish!!

**i wanted to post this thought after our OR duty but i just can't get hold of our computer :C