Morphine and Alcohol

You're like a morphine and alcohol

Every time we're together, you get so addicting.
You've reached my threshold.
And while we're getting this relationship longer,
My tolerance level gets higher.
But when you're gone
especially when there's no tapering done,
I get these withdrawal syndrome.
I can't eat, I get restless, I can't sleep

So please...
Don't go...
It doesn't matter if I reach the toxicity level,
You'll always be in my system.

mura kag tambal ug alcohol


kada mag-uban ta, makaadik ka.
naabot nako akong threshold.
ug samtang nagadugay ta, nagataas na akong tolerance sa imo.
pero kung mawala ka,
samot nag wala gihinay-hinay,
makatilaw man pod kog withdrawal syndrome.
di ko kakaon, di ko mahimutang, di ko katulog


maong hinaot nako ayaw nalang hawa.
bahalag maabot kog toxicity level,
naa ra gihapon ka sa akong sistema.

if ugly is a race

admit it.

daily letter (day 8)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear favorite internet friend,

I can't think of any person whom I can consider as my favorite internet friend, but you are the one boosting me up in Plurk. 

To Janely, 

Thanks for the insights you shared in your blogs. I am always amazed with the way you write. You are witty, straightforward and cruelly honest *now, don't hit me :)*

To my tumblr friends who followed me,

Thank you for making me feel overwhelmed. I know we share the same ideas and emotions. Thanks for reblogging my posts though it wasn't my work. But I know you reblogged it because we feel the same way. We adore cute stuffs, we are in love, we are hurt, we are simply happy. Just by following me, you make me feel I exist in the cyber world.

cyber hugs and kisses,

alegnaxc

daily letter (day 6)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear stranger,

How is life going? I hope it isn't that cruel than I imagined. I hope it will be good to you somehow. Have you  eaten yet? Did you sleep well last night? It was pretty cold today because of the rain. I hope you got a shelter. By the way, how's your family? I hope they're fine. I hope thinking about you, too, as much as you're thinking about them. Have you taken your shower? I know this is silly but seriously, some people don't take a bath especially when it's cold in the morning. By the way, we haven't met. And I don't know who you are. I hope I can ask the same questions when I get to know you.

nice writing a letter to you,

angel in disguise :D

daily letter (day 5)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Dreams,

You sometimes scare me at night making me wish I don't wanna go back to sleep again. But then I need you to free myself from fears I imagined in the real world. There are times that you make me hungry making me wish you are for real. And there are times that you make me "kilig" especially when Hollywood celebrities visit me and my Cawi snuggle me making me wish I could sleep forever with a dream like that. 

But my dear dream, you know how much I wanted to become my dream role in society. I know this sounds silly, but I really wanted to become a CELEBRITY! I wanna hang-out with the public figures, getting sponsors from and/

or become one of the model of 

 famous clothing lines, receive projects and getting paid for my talent, endorse products, being taken care of the prominent stylists and dermatologists. And then, I can help, not only to my family, but also to those poverty-stricken people.

I know this sounds too much. But there's no harm in dreaming, right? It's just a dream. But there is still a 50-50 chance that this might come true. Yes, it does. Because Cawi was once a dream before we met. He came into reality and I love him and still loving him because he's for real.

Oh well, I guess I'll just have to keep on dreaming.

Goodnight,

Angel

daily letter (day 4)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Dear Oliver,

You have grown up now. Grown up, I mean you're taller than me. I know we 're not close as siblings, but I promised myself that once I have a stable job, I'll help you with your studies. Please stay close with Mama and please don't give her a hard time because she already does with me. I may not be the best Ate you have, but I'll try my best to give you what you need in the future. Please don't hesitate to be close to me. I know sometimes you become annoying in text but I'm not being mean to you, am I not? Anyway, you are the only brother I have. Please do good in school. Keep away from bad influences and make your mama proud. :)

Dear cousins,

We may not be related by blood, but you know for sure that you are more than a real brother/sister to me. Thank you for keeping my secret about me having boyfriends since high school. Thank you for helping me figure out what needs to be figured out. Thank you for your patience though I have been the most annoying Ate you have. Thank you for your understanding when I'm not in my common senses. Thank you for appreciating the food I cook. And thank you for making me part of your life. I hope this will not end even though I'll get married. I love the laughters on random times and for your silence when I whine about heart breaks. You really know what I need. Let's support each other even when our hair turns to gray...

xoxo,

Ate Angel

vain moments in seminar

 

the eager beavers

the not-so-busy pals

 

scribbles...

and doodles...

 

 

something they should talk about... 

  

something to smile after a serious matter...

-.-

 

chopsticks

 

{{photo}}

One thing I love about using chopsticks is that...

I can eat less rice...

Or nothing at all! haha!

Since today is Kung Hei Fat Choi,

I'm eating with.... you guessed it. 

CHOPSTICKS!

This is now my favorite spoon and fork ♥

p.s.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!!

say hello to 2-O-1-O!

 1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..

2010!

We already dusted off the cobwebs out of the corner of the cabinets and swept the filthy fallen hair under the tables and beds. Now that 2010 is here, I think it is time to revamp this house and myself as well. How about a list of New Year’s resolution? But I can’t promise you guys that I can keep them all. They’re just my goals this year :)

Let’s start my top ten resolution for this year…

1.    Diet! Diet! Diet! I wanna be slim for yearbook’s sake.
2.    I want my fair white skin back. Still, this is for my yearbook’s sake.
3.    Be thrifty. Being labeled “bilmoko” by my family, I should learn the proper way to handle money. Especially, this is my last term being the Clarion’s managing editor… :( Spend wisely. I am also planning to buy something to treat myself since my birthday is fast approaching XD
4.    Eradicate procrastination. I know this is a bad habit that is almost impossible to break, but I’m really trying hard to avoid this since I’m going to be a nurse soon. It is a no-no to my profession.
5.    Be practical. I should choose things wisely- what to use or buy and what should be avoided. RESIST TEMPTATION!!!
6.    Learn to prioritize. Indeed!
7.    Be fashionable. A lot of trendy clothes can be bought from thrift-stores. There’s no need to spend thousands of cash *though I don’t have any* just to buy a single piece of apparel.
8.    Be more determined. Say yes to DOBY ANGELA T. TORRES, RN! Yeehaw!
9.    Have a stronger bond with family ties and relationship with Cawi. Keep them forever.
10.    Blog more!

What’s your new year’s resolution?

Christmas Eve wishlist!

Merry Christmas to all! This day seem so cold... Not much preparation, gift wrappings and food. To make me feel better, I made my wishlist hoping that Santa would this :)

1. I want my special someone to spend his Christmas with me or with his family. Either way won't make his Christmas cold. I bet he wanted someone to celebrate this season.

2. Turn back time. I want to go back to the time I haven't thought of formatting that camera. Maybe, just maybe, i could've made something more rightful than stupidly press the center button.

3. More food for noche buena. My lola gave P500 to my tita and thought of having KFC bucket meal. I think it's practical and the food is good enough since there are less people in this house. But I was thinking of leche flan and Red Ribbon cakes and vanilla or strawberry ice cream! yum :p

4. Lots of call and text load. I wanna ring up those dear people and greet them MERRY CHRISTMAS one by one.

5. Midnight walk with Cawi. I want to walk with him along the street since there's no fireworks and hopefully less accidents.

6. I want my own digital camera. Yeah, I'm craving to have one. Heard of lookbook.nu? I want to have an account there... *sighs* And i want this one...dual lcd digicam

7. A very good and disciplined diet. I WANNA BE SLENDER!!!!

8. I want a laptop... because... just because :)

9. I want an iPhone. It is portable.

10.DVD marathon. I want a portable DVD player where I can watch movies anytime i want.. Who wants to agree with me?

11. A complete family. I want everybody here this Christmas... Wishing I knew who's my daddy, ya'll! hehe!

12. World peace. Seriously, guys, we need this. Who doesn't? Unless if you're a greedy, war-freak sadomasochist.

13. No more famine. We don't wanna die starving.

14. A clean and Green Earth. We wanna live in this little sphere in the universe a little longer, so don't waste time wasting your garbage, a**holes!

So MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS!!! HAVE A SAFE AND PEACEFUL CELEBRATION! ♥

new header!

have you seen it?

my header?

it's cute...

really!

macy did it!

thanks to her...

i'll try to make my one next time.

nice time

little letters (before the class begins tomorrow)

some things need to be anticipated
(click colorful crayons for the source)

dear blog,

i miss you... ♥


dear Cawi,

I miss you a lot... swear!


dear EIC,

i will make my tasks tomorrow. and hopefully, i will finish it before the day ends. ☺


dear chito,

as your senior managing editor, i hope i have the impetus to teach you the fundamentals of my job. i guess you already know what to do and how to do it. because i know you have the potential to be in this position... good luck!


dear group 56,

tomorrow might change our group number but still, i will coin our group as the 56th in the school. this is so far the geekiest group i've ever been. i had fun! hope to expect more from us.


dear group 10 & 16 (when i was in 3rd year college)

you were the BEST group i've ever been. sad to say, we can't be together next time. this is the last sem we'll have. best of luck to you guys!


dear ninong (boboy),

thanks for the cellphone! i like it! it would've been best if i could use the internet (wap). i guess i have to wait till i get there (USA) to fully use the features of my phone. but who knows, i will have new phone like iPhone or the like.


dear homewrecker,

YOU ARE SUCH A B*TCH! Go to hell and eat a*s! I can't believe you have the face to show in front of us. (may gana ka pang magmano sa lola ko, 'lang 'ya ka talaga!). if i could, bubuhusan talaga kita ng arinola, puno ng ihi... hahaha *LOL* Ged! you're also a parasite sucking money from a man who has a family already. GRRR! it makes me sooooo irate. SALOT KA TALAGA SA LIPUNAN!


dear Cawi (again),

thanks for everything we shared... the time, the food, the pillows, the hugs and kisses, the full moon, the thoughts, the secrets, the ice, the music, the walks, the chats, the smiles, the pimples and white heads *lol*, the laughters, the arcade and the excitement it brings... and ALL.


dear supervisor/s,

i just hope i could have a good supervisor-student relationship. and i hope you could reserve us some slots for the completion ^___^


dear Dean Linell,

i just wish that our stool exam results will extend its validity from 3 months to 4-6 months. watdyathink? ;)



dear sir tambis,

please lower your toxicity level. di ka naman CI, eh... hehehe... seriously ;)


dear 4th year, 2nd sem of A.Y. 2009-2010

may this sem be a good one...


dear graduating students-- BATCH 2010

KUDOS! we made it this far. and hopefully we can march the aisle soon.




xo,
doby

i miss...

the [ex] clarion staff who just graduated...PAPA AL...being 17 years old...being the pain-in-the-ass to my classmates...being bully to my siblings(but i didn't say i'm miss good girl already)...the playground in our school when i was in kinder...the Marina Azul...the dance troupe club which made me slimmer for a month...being single [but i love how happy i am with him]...ma'am donna for the making her English subject the most loved period in the afternoon cuz of the movies we watched in the speech lab...W.i.t.c._.e.s. together (i am 'h')...my 3310 cp...meteor garden and F4...my p.e. uniform in high school...chinese garter and limborock...my childhood friends in gensan...my bra-less get-ups in elementary...being well-known in a small populated campus...dance revo and [old-skool] playstation...walkmans...being one of the top ten outstanding students...my drawing skills...joining talent auditions...my never-been-kissed lips...being such a spoiled brat...typewiters...collecting and bartering stationeries...EVERYTHING I MISS!

hooking up with hana yori dango

hana yori dango really means boys before flowers

i'm done reading the online manga "Hana Yori Dango" by Yoko Kamio (all good praises for this genius mangaka).

this is the sole reason why i haven't been updating my facebook, friendster, and my online diary--blog. i was facing this peecee for almost a week just reading the manga. but of course, i paid respect for the holy week so the pc was grounded for two days (and i'm so itching to turn it on during those days).

well it all started when i happen to read somebody's blog talking about "boys over flower" so i got curious and searched the manga then i just found myself sticking my eyeballs on the monitor.

well, i fell in love with the story, the characters (especially Doumyoji Tsukasa, leader of F4) and Japan (i wanna go there after dropping by HongKong and Macau 5 years from now).

who would expect a poor girl to study in such a high previleged school. well, makino tsukushi would survive in all the descriminations and hardships she may experience in that school. on the panel where tsukushi was started to be bullied, i glued myself in this seat. i got "kilig" when tsukasa realized he liked tsukushi and on the panels where they were about to kiss or just kissed. and love triangle are so typical but it is effective when it got in the way between these two lovers. there is hanazawa rui who thought to be in love with shizuka and eventually developed his feelings to makino tsukushi. kazuya also had his hidden desire to tsukushi. kin-san, the son of a politician liked makino, too. same goes to tsukasa's look-a-like (forgot his name, though). tsukushi really got an attitude that is unusual to these spoiled brats that made them like her. akira and sojirou were not serious with girls and good thing that did not fall for tsukushi, but they like her for a friend.
the girls in this story contributes a lot in tsukushi's life. yuuki, her bestfriend fell in love with a wrong guy and with sojirou. sakurako, the girl who was once in love with tsukasa when they were still in kinder and has became tsukushi's rival (but tsukushi did not took it seriously). shigeru, the girl who suddenly fell in love with tsukasa after being forced to be engaged with him. she evenually realized that they're not really for each other and helped tsukushi all along. those three mean girls in who were in the class with tsukushi, they didn't really helped her. tsubaki, tsukasa's sister, she's awesome. she beats tsukasa in front of the visitor's. she likes tsukushi for tsukasa and tried to protect her from their evil mum. kaede, tsukasa and tsubaki's evil mom (one of the villain ^^,). tama-san, the old maid who worked in the doumyoji household for 60 years and helped tsukushi in the ways she can.
tsukushi's family is great in some ways but most of the time, ANNOYING! papa and mama insisted her to study in eitoku no matter what. susume, tsukushi's lil annoying brother doesn't really annoyed me. he can be a passerby but tsukushi needs someone to help her add more problemin their house--- that is his role.

Tsukasa

i got head-over-heels on this phenomenal manga. i remembered my high school days when i'm helluvah gaga with its taiwanese version "Meteor Garden" (i even had a boyfriend who looked like Jerry Yan, the one who portrayed Dao Ming Si). it's not that i became so mean he's been a fad before... hahaha!---mean... (soooo nostalgic... high school days). well, i missed watching hana yori dango in gma cuz i'm Kapamilya. well, korean version would hit and smash the tv with "boys over flowers" and if only i could sacrifice my education for this, i would definitely do it (that's soo shallow). but i have great hopes that i would finish this series from start to end without missing an episode that is if there's no conflict on my schedules.

i took all the blame and scoldings when my cousins weren't able to put their hands on this pc because of me (tumaas rin singil ng davao light samin dahil dito). i monopolized it. i owned it for few days. i slept late and woke up late. i ate just 2-5 spoonful of my meals. i did not watch TV. i ignored the radio. i ignored facebook, friendster, and my blog. i barely text. my butt hurts from sitting 14 hours a day (of course i took a bath). however, i enjoyed my time reading this precious crap i was even copying/ writing some japanese characters... I HAD FUUUUNNN!!!

but i tell you, reading it first is always the best thing to do before watching it playing on screen.