nice time

i should have been a cheerleader!

A lot of times that I've been battling with my regret and I'm trying hard to forget it. So many "what if's" and "I should've done this if..." statements are formulating in my head this morning while I was riding the van during our community exposure. Groggy and forced to have this ride, I rested my eyes and reflected with my could-have-been moments in school.

When I entered college, I have a goal of making my name known or at least be read in the publication. I wanted to show off that I have talents, too.This pushed me to join CLARION along with my long-term friend, Pam. Check! Now you can read my name in DDC's CLARION magazine.

My regret started this year. The recent foundation day got me choked up seeing my fellow buddies dancing to the beat while flaunting their dance moves in cheer dance. They are the CHAMPION... and so my thought said, "what if I joined the audition? I'm sure I could pass it." This compunction is one big deal for me in some sense. First, I'm in my last year of my study. Next, I will never, EVER be able to perform in front of students with their yells and cheers with optimism and enthusiasm. Because I am a student nurse, I am busy studying (ahem!) and complying with our requirements.Lastly, this thought is FRUSTRATING!

I regret because I was opposed by Fear. Fear that my lola will be mad because I joined such activity. Fear that my grades will be affected because of this activity. Fear that people (especially my beau) will laugh at me. Fear that I may disappoint the team if we lose.

Frustrating-- because, I am on my mindset that I'm no longer a high school student who needs lots of extra-curriculum activities in order to be an honor student (though i failed to become one on the finals). Because, they said this is a waste of time. Because they are teasing me with my physique, telling me that I can't dance 'cause i can't carry my own body (hey! that was insulting; and i heard this statement from my lola... :( sad)

I don't know, but I think I am mad about this... I felt annoyance to my family and friends (except for those who encouraged me to join... they were outnumbered by the opposition, sorry :c ) who laughed at me when I said I wanted to join the team. It irked me when my beau wasn't willing to support me. I envied that chubbier girl who made it in the squad. In fairness, she dances well. Who knows, I could've danced better.

On the second thought, I sometimes wish I could go back to high school where my passion loves me, too.

I Hate It

it's a dog show (literally)

for the  i-don't-know-what-the-hell-is-going-on reasons, the DDC is holding a dog show in the gym. it's starting to get stinky.

different breeds of doggies are here competing with each other :D

the BIG dogs and the small ones are too cute to resist. i'd rather not mind the stinky smell if i could only rub on their head. and I DID! they're so adorable, irresistable, and awesome cuz, i don't know why, they're just simply amazing.

my favorite one is the siberian husky (they say :)) she's so sweet and friendly. there are also lots of pugs and golden retriever. the labrador is so bossy-looking. and all of them were pampered. they got blowers and stuff. whew!

all i can say is "GOOD DOG!" ☺

sweetness

1/2

you are my better half

half of me settles on the hilltop

while i'm here in the downtown

the whole of me is stargazing

half of me smiles, half of me frowns

i'm holding his right hand

that writes the song of my heart

i'm holding her left hand

where she wears the ring i gave her

i kissed my other half goodbye

as she stays to whisper I LOVE YOU

and half of me drove away

while half of me began to cry

i'm falling for my other half

and half of me can't live without him

our hearts are for keeps

i am you, and you are me

i am the two of us

thus we are one in it

we're no twins but of fate

every half of me makes me complete

pain, pain, go away

eeew... gross!

last night, i was almost crawling my way to bed when my molar tooth started to love the prostaglandin. i assessed my pain with a pain scale of 7/10. that was pretty ouchie!

and now, RLE time, i don't know if i can still tolerate the pain. well, on the brighter side, i can eat less. that means I"M ON A DIET! weee!

first day HIGH... not!

sooo bored!

it's just like we've been from a long vacation. it's so typical. bored. i feel like i realized my sleep was deprived when i stepped inside the room, seeing same faces with same expression on their faces, ginagaya si Lady Gaga--> poker face..haha lol!

oh well, there's still another day. but honestly, all my first days were exciting before. i guess i'm surprised that i'm not surprised at all this time. tsk!

little letters (before the class begins tomorrow)

some things need to be anticipated
(click colorful crayons for the source)

dear blog,

i miss you... ♥


dear Cawi,

I miss you a lot... swear!


dear EIC,

i will make my tasks tomorrow. and hopefully, i will finish it before the day ends. ☺


dear chito,

as your senior managing editor, i hope i have the impetus to teach you the fundamentals of my job. i guess you already know what to do and how to do it. because i know you have the potential to be in this position... good luck!


dear group 56,

tomorrow might change our group number but still, i will coin our group as the 56th in the school. this is so far the geekiest group i've ever been. i had fun! hope to expect more from us.


dear group 10 & 16 (when i was in 3rd year college)

you were the BEST group i've ever been. sad to say, we can't be together next time. this is the last sem we'll have. best of luck to you guys!


dear ninong (boboy),

thanks for the cellphone! i like it! it would've been best if i could use the internet (wap). i guess i have to wait till i get there (USA) to fully use the features of my phone. but who knows, i will have new phone like iPhone or the like.


dear homewrecker,

YOU ARE SUCH A B*TCH! Go to hell and eat a*s! I can't believe you have the face to show in front of us. (may gana ka pang magmano sa lola ko, 'lang 'ya ka talaga!). if i could, bubuhusan talaga kita ng arinola, puno ng ihi... hahaha *LOL* Ged! you're also a parasite sucking money from a man who has a family already. GRRR! it makes me sooooo irate. SALOT KA TALAGA SA LIPUNAN!


dear Cawi (again),

thanks for everything we shared... the time, the food, the pillows, the hugs and kisses, the full moon, the thoughts, the secrets, the ice, the music, the walks, the chats, the smiles, the pimples and white heads *lol*, the laughters, the arcade and the excitement it brings... and ALL.


dear supervisor/s,

i just hope i could have a good supervisor-student relationship. and i hope you could reserve us some slots for the completion ^___^


dear Dean Linell,

i just wish that our stool exam results will extend its validity from 3 months to 4-6 months. watdyathink? ;)



dear sir tambis,

please lower your toxicity level. di ka naman CI, eh... hehehe... seriously ;)


dear 4th year, 2nd sem of A.Y. 2009-2010

may this sem be a good one...


dear graduating students-- BATCH 2010

KUDOS! we made it this far. and hopefully we can march the aisle soon.




xo,
doby

currently hating you...

click it

because...

...you knew her before i came
...you hurt me again
...you made her picture your display image in YM
...you lied
...you're an example of a private media who showed what a girl should be

>:(