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Wednesday, January 28, 2009

i'm a day-wrecking masochist!


give this day a 'HELL YEAH!!!' who could've thought i actually ruined my beau's day... he is supposed to eat at picobello with his groupmates after a 3-strenuous-days of duty in the hospital. i was, yes, invited by his groupmate-- the one who will treat them (and me). my boo told me to go inside, and i went in. out of the blue, i justfind myself walking outside by the sight of his groupmates making orders. i don't know what' has gotten into me. he went after me and asked what's wrong.. nothing seemed right to come out of my mouth...
nahihiya ako sa kanila eh, tawagin mo nalang si nuevo(the treater^^,)sya dapat magyaya sa kin. kasi nakakahiya naman kung ikaw yung nagyayaya sakin tapos di naman ikaw yung nagbabayad, yung ibang tao pa..."
i just realized nothing's wrong with me... maybe it's his fault. he just can't take the shame.. hmmm.. i was suddenly surprised when i saw him coming out from the resto with his back pack... we don't have to stay longer cuz i'm pretty tired with our conversation. and the look of his face is a cliche, i mean i know what he means "good,-you-just-ruined-my-day". as we walked along the road, he just made the most, probably the guiltiest (what's the difference?) girl ever walked the bonifacio street. with tears streaming down my cheeks, i tried to explain and tell him what he should have done... i bet he's stupid... but still i claimed it my fault. hurting myself is my ART... i just won the (look at the picture.. -.-)


whatever... i just accept pain... nothing can cure it except the one who caused.

Monday, January 26, 2009

i got something in my eye

it's not dust. nothing foreign got in it. every morning i always check myself in the mirror, dusting off my eye booger and stare at my ever mysterious eyes. something in it leaves me wondering every time somebody's praising my eyes, at school, with my friends, with the CI's, or even those i don't know. sometimes, i just wished i am as perfect as my eyes (i wish my body was). God is so good for giving me such an asset. i just realized i can be pretty at times when i don't want to. =D
but i admit that i am never photogenic, and so as my eyes.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Take 2 No More

no more second chances
and i've ran out of patience
i waited, i just grew tired
i'm in my senses now
there's no turning back
i'm moving on

i've been down on my knees
begging for you
but you never came
you're preocccupied with your jerky friends
and rather spend time with them

few years passed
you needed me still
you said your life has been incomplete
since the day i left
wait a moment, who left?
you can turn the world
but you cannot turn me
i just want to be happy
and i am what i wanted

i never have to kiss you goodbye
cuz you've been long gone
and i will never say hello
to a love that never was.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

liar!

you don't have to lie about your password.
your kinda make me lose my trust for you.
you said that you already forget her.
how can you,if you're still using her name for your protection?
it makes me sick just thinking of it...

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i get paranoid about almost everything especially when it comes to relationship, safety, and future.