honestly, i love you

embrace me and don't let go, so we can have foreverclick photo for source

We (Cawi and I) just had a conversation through chat because we awfully missed each other.
He complained about being locked in his own room because the doorknob is broken and he can't get out (LOL). A little more laughter and corny jokes... then things got serious.

It started when he suddenly blurted out:

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:01:33 AM): will u mary me?
im serious

then i said:

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:01:47 AM): of course...
y all of the sudden?
natamaan ka sakin noh? (have you fallen for me deeply?)
haha

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:02:41 AM): i just realized

i want to be with you forever

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:03:51 AM): ngaun mo pa narealize? (you realized that just now?)
ang tagal ko nang gusto mangyari yan (I've been longing for that to happen)

then a little bit later, he said:

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:16:59 AM): im sori
sa mga pgkukulang ko (for my shortcomings)

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:17:23 AM): mas marami yata akong pagkukulang mine (i think i have more shortcomings than you)*
yaan mo... i'll try my hardest to make it up to you (don't worry, I'll try my hardest to make it up to you)

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:17:50 AM): aq din (me, too)

...

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:20:22 AM): i luv u

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:20:27 AM): i luv u 2

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:20:44 AM): khit ndi ko man napaparamdam na mahal kita (even though i didn't show much of my love for you)
kc minsan dinidedma kita (because, sometimes i just ignore you)
ndi aq nka2 reply sa mga blog mu (i don't reply to your blog)
and etc
im proud of u
im just not man enough to say it to you
im sori
some times wen we fight
i use to look tough

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:24:16 AM): u always look tough

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:24:09 AM): kunwari, (for example)
ok lng skin na mawala ka (it's ok for me if you'll be gone)
kc alam ko nman na babalik ka (cuz i know you'll be coming back to me)
so the fights aren't threat to me

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:24:58 AM): pano kung di na ako makabalik? (what if i can't come back?)

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:25:14 AM): i dunno

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:25:50 AM): wat if one time we have a fight, i walked away. i didn't come back
un pla may nangyari na sakin? (then something happened to me)
pano un? (how's that)

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:26:38 AM): ndi ko maimagine (i can't imagine that)
ewn... kung kakayanin ko ( i dunno... if i can take it) ♥

...

He also opened up why he acted so cold, and it's because of his past relationship. I tried to understand him. I guess the reason why he don't want to do the things he did for her is that he don't want that history to happen again. He don't want us to end up like that. They ended feeling like everything, the effort, the love, were gone to waste. It was drastic especially he loved that girl so much then along came ME. I didn't plead guilty to what happened before, yet I felt sorry.

I already have him and he have me.
...

He sent me a song: You Don't Need Eyes To See by Typecast

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:12:34 AM): im listening to it right now
it's a short song
a minute and a half...
it's nice...
maka-relate ako (I can relate to it)

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:13:57 AM): knino mu mai-relate? (to whom?)

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:14:11 AM): sa'yo (to you)

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:14:21 AM): batet? (why?)
cge daw beh (tell me)

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:14:29 AM): everytime you cover my eyes
then you'll say "I'll be your eyes"
i am hesitant but i think it's sweet

...

He asked if we had a promise made for each other. There's none I could think and he don't want promises because we might break it.

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:57:59 AM): no promises, plz

alegna Torres (10/26/2009 12:58:13 AM): ok...
no promises...
just stay in love with me
cuz i will be in love with you....
will you?

xyz_zxc2003 (10/26/2009 12:59:15 AM): i will

♥♥♥

and so after chatting with some school matters and sectioning stuff, and letting each other know how dull a room could be if one of us is not around, we kissed each other good night, wishing each other sweet dreams, and hoping to sleep tight...

we called it a night.

xo


*forgive me for my i-think-my-grammar-is-wrong translation of some lines in the conversation. but i tried to make it easier for you to understand though i know you completely understand what Cawi and i had said.